This picture was taken around 30 weeks. We’re coming up on 31 already. Benjamin seems to grow everyday… our neighbor about a month ago thought I was having twins. So, I don’t think he’s having too many issues with his growth at this point. : )
I am “feeling” 45 though. My body feels like I’m closer to 36+ weeks along rather than 30. Everything hurts. To get up from the chair feels like when you get out of the pool after a few hours… so heavy, but stiff and painful. My bones hurt way more, especially my lower back as the sacroiliac joint pain has flared up again and seems quite exasperated this time! If my weight isn’t distributed on both feet perfectly, I have pain back there. I’ve been quite breathless for some time already. The first time I started feeling it, I worried about my heart. Now I know why the Lord cuts off child bearing age around now… I shouldn’t be wondering if I’m having a heart problem when it’s a pregnancy symptom. : )
But, I am blessed that we have another son on the way. I have one full month left (June), to prepare for him. I’ve picked up my knitting again to finish his blanket. I have less than a skein left. I pulled out Matthew’s little baby clothes and washed them all. We’ve set up the bassinet, have a pack of diapers on the way from Amazon and now I’m trying to figure out how to have my husband at the hospital with me or how they will even visit. We still aren’t connected to people out here so it’s a very hard dilemma as I like to have everything prepared.
My first c-section the spinal didn’t take so I felt everything. It was horrible. Since then with the other c-sections, I’ve had to fight a room full of people that I need a general (being put out) as I just cannot take the thought of chancing going through such a thing again. It’s a very hard thing to do when I feel so vulnerable at the time with strangers all around me. So, I’m hoping somehow Matthew can be there to “fight” for me. He was witness to what happened in 2006 so it would be so nice to have him there for me! : )
I have my second non-stress test on Thursday and at 32 weeks on it will be twice a week. It’s a one hour drive one way to the hospital for the appointment. The hospital is very small, the smallest hospital I’ve ever been in. Anyways, they will do weekly ultrasounds then too. So, I do believe they are trying to keep tabs on everything. I’m curious as to how my placenta looks as I don’t think it’s been looked at since the discovery of the calcium on it. I’ll update as we go along. We’re just praying for a healthy baby. I know in one way or another all will work out as it always does and hopefully Benjamin will be home with us in 6 or 7 weeks or so. : ) He has the hiccups right now. Silly boy!