Daddy We Miss You

We miss daddy, don’t we kids? Here is a picture from November 14th (Matthew turned 4 this day). He’s lost nearly 20 pounds since then due to the gallbladder infection, etc….   : (   Anyways, we sure can’t wait to have you home dear. He just got done milking our cow here. Look at how clean he keeps everything.


Thanksgiving and Yesterday

I took this picture below on Thanksgiving. The kids were being silly and got themselves into the car seats pretending they were babies. I try to stay away from the sugar, but with all that’s going on I thought we might as well make the best of it, eat cookies and have a little fun. Elisabeth’s cookies were sure good.  : )  I bet you will remember making these one day, Elisabeth.


I failed to mention that when the babies were in NICU, I went to visit them one evening and two ladies mistakenly thought I was the grandmother of them.  It actually warmed my heart. I love the aging process… I just wish my bones didn’t hurt in my body so much already.  : )
I try to hold my babies each morning for a while while everybody is eating. I don’t get much time with them and it’s hard on me. I try to steal 10 minutes here and 10 minutes there with them as much as possible throughout the day. Lately, it’s been hard because Miriam usually goes to her father so I can take care of the twins. She is vying for all of my attention now that daddy is in the hospital. Anyways, I love holding two babies, it is the most wonderful and natural thing for a mother to feel.


Elisabeth, you are so pretty and grown up looking…. maybe I shouldn’t show these pictures.  : )


It is wonderful that Elisabeth just sat quiet and exactly like I saw her when I picked up my camera to shoot. She didn’t try to make silly, fun faces so I got to capture her in her seriousness.

Another Update

We were able to go visit daddy today in the hospital as some Mennonite neighbors watched over the twins and Miriam during nap time (and brought dinner over for tonight and tomorrow). Matthew didn’t look too well. He hasn’t eaten any foods since last Tuesday and has lost a lot of weight. He was around 185 last we knew… now he’s in the 160’s. I am very upset because once again, this all could have and should have been prevented. One of his numbers was 785… it’s supposed to be 40 or less. Now it’s down to the 500’s and still coming down too slow so they increased his antibiotics. Matthew spoke with the patient advocate and a nurse who has heard about the treatment of my husband over the months (being told to go home as they couldn’t do anything for him), has written up an incident report.

I know more now. They are trying to get his infection down so they can do laser surgery on his gallbladder. If they cannot, they will remove it the old fashioned way which entails a 6 inch scar and 3 weeks of healing verses 6 days or so. They are planning on doing surgery on Tuesday but I don’t know anymore. What if his numbers aren’t low enough? We are talking about coming to a place that if his numbers aren’t low enough by Tuesday morning that they remove it the old fashioned way. My husband needs to get back to eating and healing up. Who ever thought a gallbladder could cause so many problems? Well, it shouldn’t have. I’ll update more as we find out more.


Government Medicine…

Update:   Today (Thanksgiving), Matthew is in the hospital. He went in yesterday and they found a stone in his duct. They took blood work and he has some bacteria in his blood and something going on with his liver. He has jaundice with the yellowing of the eyes too. Once the stone passes they will hopefully pull his gallbladder out. They still may not do that until tomorrow though.  : (

Update:   Matthew will not be able to come home or have his gallbladder removed until his infection in his gallbladder subsides. This will be several days. I am furious at the VA’s incompetency in not correctly diagnosing this 4 months ago or so when he first started going in for pain. He would not have an infection if they had diagnosed and removed it immediately. My daughter is flying in from Washington State on Monday, thank God for good Christian neighbors to help. They will help with watching kids, rides or anything else we need. Their sons are milking our cow each morning and evening. So, we do have God’s hand upon us.

My poor husband was sent  home last night at 3:00 in the morning with his gallbladder still intact. Because he’s going to a VA hospital, this is why things are so slow. They shared that because he’s not in a catastrophic situation, they could not remove it until his appointment. He has a consultation this Friday for surgery possibly Monday. My daughter is flying in from Washington State on Monday so it may end up having to be Tuesday. So, while I’m sharing this my husband is laying on the couch downstairs in horrible pain again trying to get a nap in before milking the cow. Thank God they gave him some morphine pills. He just took 1/2 less than half an hour ago. Hopefully, he’ll be able to sleep.  : (   Thank God he won’t have to wait 4 months to have it removed as he was told the other day.


Update: Well, here’s government medicine for you. He was told that his consult is on the 20th but they won’t be able to remove his gallbladder for 4 months!!! Fortunately, the doctor shared that if he has another gallbladder attack (like the  one’s he’s had for 5 nights out of 6), that he can go into the emergency room and they will just prep him and do surgery then. He is having another horrible attack tonight and should be arriving there right now. Pray that they will remove it so he can get on with life. Pray that I can make it through the day cheerfully with a full load of kids.

Our main computer is out for repairs at this time so I am just going to sit patiently and wait for it to come back before posting pictures. My husband finally was diagnosed with gallstones. He has continued to have gallbladder attacks and sad to say, I found with his symptoms that he most likely had gallstones before the doctor’s diagnosis which took several months and several trips to the VA hospital. So, on the 20th of this month they will most likely be removing his gallbladder.

Matthew is 4 years old today. I have a nice pan of homemade brownies cooling for him right now. I had my most normal and beautiful day of labor with him 4 years ago. We are so grateful for him. I’ll post pictures later when the other computer is back.

The kids have been sick all week, but we’re all making it just fine. The house has been filled with peace for 3 days… I’ll share more later. I hope everyone who reads this is doing well. May the Lord bless you…